Looking back

It seems to me that many people I know or bloggers that I read are taking this time to look back at the past 12 months and see where they were and how far they have come. Ever the analyzer that I am, I though that this would be fun. I have come so far. But I cannot just talk about the past year. For me, the journey started when I arrived in Sandpoint, ID on August 16th of 2008.

My favorite picture that I took of the canyon.

I left the Grand Canyon not knowing what I was getting myself into. All I knew was that I needed a change for the better. Leaving an abusive relationship of 3 years, I wasn’t really sure who I was anymore. But I knew that I liked the person that I used to be and I wanted to restart my relationship with her. Depression got the best of me for a few months. It was understandable. But a chance meeting while playing pool in a bar would lead me to where I am now. I played pool with Ben for a while, but it was all superficial chit chat until I lost my house due to a flaky roommate. Ben noticed that I wasn’t myself and asked what was wrong. I told him and it turned out that he needed a roommate. I never would have guessed that he would become one of my best friends over that year.

The sun coming up my first morning in Sandpoint

Feeling better about myself and living with a stable roommie, gave me the confidence to start dating. Let me just say, that sucked! But then I met Bill. I thought we were in different places in our lives. He was fresh out of an 8 year marriage with 3 kids and I wanted to have all that of my own. So we were friends. Its funny how sometimes you realize that what you have always wanted is right there in front of you. Bill knew that I wanted a child and he wanted that with me. He just wanted to make me happy. And he does!

I am happy. I have ideas and plans for the future with someone that fills my heart with so much love that I never knew it was possible. We are going to be married next year and we are starting to plan our family. I have three of the most wonderful step children that anyone could ever ask for. I count myself among the lucky ones in this world. We laugh hard, we work hard, and we love hard. and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

My Future